Finally an update!.........I've been living at the hospital the last 2 days with no computer. I came home to take a much needed shower and then I'm heading back to the hospital. Travis and I arrived at 5:30 am at pre-op on Tuesday morning. The anesthesiologist, Dr. Shedd, and the chief resident, Dr. Chang answered some questions about the surgery before having me and Travis' dad, Gerald say good-bye to Travis. It was a little emotional but I really tried not to be a crybaby. Then they whisked him away for surgery at 7:30 am. My parents and brother came to wait with me later in the morning and my sister, Emily and sister-in-law, Jodi joined us later after lunch. Gerald's wife, Linda also came later on. With all the company the time passed fairly well until about 2 pm. They told us it could take 4-6 hours but could very well take longer. By 2 pm I started pacing and getting antsy. I checked for an update at 2:30 when they told us they were closing up following surgery. It was another hour and a half before we heard anymore. Dr. Shedd came out to tell us that everything went well and a good deal of the tumor was removed. After this, everyone left except for me and Gerald. I was waiting alone when Dr. Spetzler came to give me information on the surgery. He said that he was not able to remove most of the tumor without a big risk to Travis. He said it was "scared tightly" or something like that. He said we would wait a couple days for pathology to come back. Also, Travis may be able to have gamma knife, which is a non-invasive surgery in which a precise laser of radiation is directed with scalpel-like beams that can possibly take care of the remaining portion of the tumor. This was a treatment that we had heard about early on, but because of the size of the tumor, Travis wasn't a candidate for before the surgery. I felt very happy to hear this news, as gamma knife is an amazing procedure with great results.
Travis was taken to recovery but I wasn't allowed to see him until they transferred him to ICU. That didn't happen until 6 pm. When I got there, I saw a nurse pushing a bed with a man on it and didn't immediately recognize that it was Travis. His eyes were swollen and he had neosporin-like stuff on them. His face was also a little swollen so he didn't look exactly like himself. I guess I must have stopped in my tracks and stared because the nurse stopped and asked me if I was with him. I told her that I was his wife. He looked like he was still asleep but she told him I was there. I leaned down and said, "Hi hon, it's Andrea." His eyes flew open and he looked at me with overly open big blue eyes and whispered, "Who are you?" I immediately panicked but replied, "It's your wife!.....Andrea!" He then said in a raspy whisper, "I'm just messin' with ya." Can you believe that! Over 8 hours in brain surgery and he still has a sense of humor. (even at my expense......my nerves were shot!)
The next 24 hours were definitely the hardest. He was hungry so they gave him ice chips. He immediately threw them up. Even with morphine, it only helps keep the pain from being intolerable. He has had a bad case of the hiccups off and on. This also triggers vomiting. By this morning, he is more talkative and will try standing and maybe walking. Our biggest obstacles are the nausea and major headaches. He has a very respectable incision in a zig-zag shape behind his right ear. They call his headache "incisional headache," even though the pain wraps around his whole head. The nurses tell me he is doing so great....better than most following such a difficult surgery. I am amazed how well he is doing. I think today will be better and he will keep improving from here. I have been living on the very comfy sofa in his room, it makes for a decent bed too. I am so grateful to be able to stay 24/7 with him. There is a special place in heaven for those who are taking care of our kids for us until we are able to all be home together.
Travis has a lumbar drain to keep swelling off the brain. He has a little tube coming out of his lower back and a stand with a bag collecting spinal fluid. He gets it out tomorrow and then he will probably be moved out of ICU. We don't want any visitors for now in order to allow Travis to completely rest and recover. This has been helpful. He's really no fun to be around right now anyway! We are anxious to get pathology reports and post surgery MRI results back. We are through the worst part now, I think, but we still have a ways to go.
I want to express my love to family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, everyone who has gone out of their way to show love, pray, fast, do service for our family. My faith is strengthened by your examples of love and charity. Also, I have to say that through this past few days, I have absolutely felt a peace and comfort that everything is going to be fine. Everyone would ask how I was doing on the surgery day. I never had a doubt that Travis would come out of it better than he went in. I know this feeling was a blessing from our Heavenly Father. I know He wants to bless our family. Through our faith and the faith of so many others, I know He can make Travis whole and healthy again. I just know it. Travis and I love you. All of you know who you are. We couldn't possibly do this without you.