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What an emotionally draining day it has been.  I like to think how strong and positive I am trying to be and appreciate others saying that also, but today I feel very........tired.  We met with Dr. Ashby at the Barrow's Institute in Phoenix.  She confirmed the presence of the tumor but needs another MRI to get different images.  She got Travis in first thing tomorrow morning.  She meets with a team of doctors on Monday and wants the new MRI for that meeting.  So it sounds like we won't have any more answers until at least Monday.  She thinks the tumor is a glioma tumor but without a biopsy she can't be certain. On Monday the doctors will discuss the possibility of doing a biopsy.  They won't do it if they think it's too risky.  Fortunately, the surgeon who would do the procedure is a world-renowned neurosurgeon, Dr. Spetzler.  The tricky thing about a glioma tumor is that it cannot be removed because it is made up of filaments that weave through the brain like a grapevine.  It sounds like the most likely treatment will be radiation.  It would be 6 weeks long of daily treatments (Monday through Friday).  

Travis is such a superstar!  He is being so patient and loving with the kids.  My patience is tapped out.  While I was quickly trying to brush teeth and get them into bed, Ella said I am being a bad mom.  Now I know she doesn't really mean that but it's a hard thing to hear on a day like this one.  We mentioned to Olivia that Travis had some doctor appointments because he hasn't been feeling well.  She looked concerned and asked, "But it worked out fine in the end, right?"  I believe it will work out fine in the end.  We just have a long road ahead of us.